And it’s been years since I’ve been able to do that. Going to keep sharing because if my other creative practices have taught me anything, it’s that I enjoy sharing my creations. It makes me feel like a kid again.
Tag: neurodivergence
More abstract collage; grateful for this
Found my way back to inspiration for my favorite form of expression. Often I will go on creative sprints and then feel the need to take a break from this particular medium. Always a happy return. Completed after doing some Oracle art tonight. Readings still available in my Etsy, and they include a lovely one-of-a-kind mixed media artwork to go along with your message, affirmation and prompts. shops on sale 25% until Valentine’s Day.
ADHD life: video discussing my commonplace practice and planner system
Honestly
What colleges have you attended?
College is a touchy subject for me because it was a struggle. So, I won’t go into ALL of the colleges I’ve attended.
Most of my education was done at Northern Illinois University. I ended up graduating from Easten Illinois University. It took me almost 13 years to complete college. I think I went to six different schools in that time.
Education is different for everyone. Had I a chance to do things over, I would not have gone away to college. I would have researched more and gone through my other options.
But it’s not helpful to dwell on the past.
My biggest challenge: consistency
My biggest challenge for most of my life has been my inability to stay consistent with my goals. In recent years, since getting sober, I have been able to push myself through some of the resistance. Ultimately, I didn’t see a huge transformation with it until I received my ADHD diagnosis. Everything suddenly took off.
My creative journaling practice, my writing, and finally a movement practice have all become staples in my everyday life. I am so grateful. I am working through some of the grief, anger and loss that have come with realizing I have been trying to hold myself to unrealistic standards most of my life. Growing up with undiagnosed ADHD didn’t look difficult on the surface (I was labeled a gifted kid) but it was exhausting, and all fell apart once I went to college and no longer had the stability I grew up with.
It is hard to acknowledge that had I known this about myself, so much could have been different. Perhaps I wouldn’t have signed over years of my life to alcoholism. Perhaps I wouldn’t have flunked out of college. Maybe I would have cared for my body as the sacred vessel that it is.
I am sitting with these complex feelings, and often process them as I sit with my art journal, because I know that I must feel them, and let them go. It is not helpful to hang on to this longing for times past. All I can do is manage my life as it is happening right now. And right now, I am pretty proud of how far I have come.